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Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all want to know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story...
You're never coming back
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
cant explain anything now
more n more questions everyday
maybe amanda's sixth sense is right
it has always been
match tmr
playing centre.
composure!!
haha
gg to collect jerseys at 1230 tmr
woohoo
gg to sleep now!
never cared
Monday, September 26, 2005
this day brings back countless memories
inexplicable joy on this date a couple of months back
its not something tt i will forget
its difficult to explain how i am feeling
i cant explain why
but after so long
the feelings are still there
every moment spent with you
is a moment i'll treasure
i miss you
never cared
Sunday, September 25, 2005
boring day
nsm no sdrawkcab gnihtyreve etorw
fun fun
kinda keeps me occupied
bored
cant explain the feeling i'm getting
i dunno why i'm feling this also
i tried so hard.
i really did.
but guess when u try so hard
sometimes it backfires
soccer training tmr
gonna sleep now
never cared
i dunno what's this happening for
and how long more it will drag on
its becoming very irritating
and its really taking up alot of my energy
i just wish it didnt happen
well who knows?
then maybe i would be enjoying life now
yday when she mary(forgot her surname)
was preaching
sorta realised tt i still have so many things in my box
all the dissapointment and all the hurt
well she's been thru more
sometimes i just wish i was God
could do everything and anything
.
training in sch yday
xbox at ps
church
home
zzz
.
b o r e d
never cared
Friday, September 23, 2005
boring day
woke up early
met lydia n bird at queenstown mrt
went to have lunch at changi b4 sendin tif off
had bk
slacked n talked
aft tt met the rest of the ppl
sent tif off
then went home
on the train back was super tired
really wanted to fall asleep standing
thankfully i reached home soon enough
where did we loose it?
i'll nvr know
never cared
Thursday, September 22, 2005
spent the day with francis rahman n gadaffy
ordered jerseys
fbt
took no.17
pooled
went home
feeling very down these few days
screwed up life
can we go back to the beginning?
just like before?
i guess its only a dream of mine
i've tried so hard
tried all i could.
maybe it just isnt enough
i didnt fuck around
just tried so hard
maybe i tried too hard
why did i ever cause myself so much pain
why was i so stupid
thinking tt everything was as i thought
everything was great
too freaking great
thanks for everything man
thanks for letting me feel something i will always treasure
and then just shattering the dream
.
what kinda person toys with another
he/she shld just go and die
excuse me?
there's no place for these kinda ppl in the world!
maybe hell has a place for u
never cared
tired.
tired of everything
i feel i've lost faith
lost hope
i cant connect like before
am sorta in a world of my own
so indifferent to the world arnd me
its nt tt i dun care
i cant seem to focus
cant seem to snap outa this
is this a game?
it isnt fun
i really dont know what to do
maybe i should just fade away
who cares
what's the use
sharing problems
maybe its hard to know how i am feeling
well it aint gonna be easy
to get outa this (explenative) life
this big mess
.
.
Whatcha’ doin’ tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealin' your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive
[Chorus]
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)
Saw your face in the crowd
I call out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life
[Chorus]
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)
I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...
never cared
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
d
never cared
testing
never cared
BORED
dont think i updated yday
did i? hmms
anyway yday morn n afternoon
sorta did nothing
played maple
lols
lame but time consuming
at night talked on the phone abit
really hope my prayers will be answered
.
woke up super early this morn
decided not to go town
couldn't sleep last night
up thinking
nt sure how i'm gonna spend today
prob just slack the day away
never cared
Monday, September 19, 2005
soccer training in sch today
only a few ppl came dwn
drizzled but played
aft tt showered at sports hall
ate at the cafe near the pool
the uncle insisted on speaking chi to my alay friend
he thought he was funny
my friends were like
ehh he's wierd
aft tt went to play xobx
stupid francis
lucky lucky
won me
hahaha
never cared
Sunday, September 18, 2005
boring day
dwnloaded initial D ep 17 & 18
slacked arnd the whole day
went to grands for mooncake fest
ate mooncake
watched bean the ultiate disaster
lame show
.
what if i said i miss u?
hmmms
never cared
Saturday, September 17, 2005
no soccer today
courts were occupied
lan party
lunch
pool
cell
service
really dont feel like blogging
feeling kinda down
guess its too much coming back
too much for me to take
dont think anyone will understand
maybe not even you
the memories seem so clear
as if they were just yesterday
i was really serious
getting over is easier said than done
never cared
Friday, September 16, 2005
tired.
slept at 3 yday
playing games frm abt 2-3 when we were supp to be studyin
fun fun
nfsu2
eng tat got wacked
hahahahaha
aft amp this morn
went lot 1 arcade
plaed initial D
played daytona
played some shotin game
went to joel's hse
nfsu2
matri reloded
home
dinner
zzzzz
never cared
Monday, September 12, 2005
glad u made the right choice. don't waste your time on him. do take care and all the best in the future!
.
today was pretty boring
went to beauty world mac
studied tf till bout 325
went to pool
won 1 game then went on a loosing streak
to much on my mind i guess
been forgetting things here and there
was pretty pre-occupied today
too many past memories coming back
read the blog this afternoon
maybe i made too many mistakes
a little too many
or maybe it wasnt God's will
well i cant do much bout it
tf tmr
not really ready for it
a little scared
prayed alr thou
-everything's changing
never cared
Sunday, September 11, 2005
didnt update yday
was tired
played soccer as usual in the morn
miah's in army for 2 weeks so wont be havin him arnd
had to leave at 1215 cos they wanted to fogg the place in prevention of dengue
we had to shower elsewhere
some went to rp to shower
some went home
jeremy came over to my place
got some stuff for the tif's farewell party
cabbed to church
surprise party!
tif we're gonna miss u!
ahaha
aft cell, went to service
after service discussed some soccer stuff
da pao-ed hokkien mee
ate home
watched true files
online
zzzzzzz
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today
.
been slacking for quite long alr
woke at 830 cos dad bought nasi lemak
asked me to eat
was like oh ok
so tired
gona study soon
hope to do well
never cared
Friday, September 09, 2005
engine maths
.
skipped complex nos
.
finished in 30 mins
.
slept
.
woke up
.
went home
.
winning 11
.
slacked
.
swensons
.
teen challenge
.
train ride
.
bus ride
.
memories
.
blogging
.
tired.sick n tired.God help me.
never cared
Thursday, September 08, 2005
to that someone
you know who you are
if you are reading this,
i've been praying for you
.everyday.
guess God answered that prayer
i thank him for that
all glory to God
stay happy yeah?
take care and
have fun with your good friends
maybe i wasnt good enough
-doing all i can to be a better man
never cared
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
feel very awake so blogging for the day
had breakfast at kap
think i saw someone familiar
had hotcakes and sausage
saw this cheena guy n his gf
he was playing some com game
his gf was looking on
he didnt even bother abt her
her face was super sian!!!
hahaha
walked back to sch
on the way back joked abt cheena ppl
super funny
.
met kg at queensway at abt 630
looked arnd
he came my hse to study
left at abt 1015
sent him to the bus stop
came home
feeling frustrated at some stuff
its hard to explain how i am feeling
well if u talked to me
thanks for being there
.
tt's all i guess
dont feel like updating more
Good morning!!
hahs
never cared
Sunday, September 04, 2005
Havent been blogging for days
been kinda caught up with things
out of laziness
i shall just blog for yday
woke up at 8
went to rp to play soccer
played as cm
super shiok
ahahahaha
tired man
aft soccer jian rong my bro n me
walked frm rp to church
like so far lah
it looked near at first
the hawker looked just arnd the bend
but the bend never ended!!!
hahaha
had lunch. nasi lemak.
then went to play dota with kg n my bro
i got thrashed
so sian lah
went for cell aft tt
then went for service
aft service there was a little soccer stuff to do
met sharon. she passed me initial D vcd
its very nice
there's this little magnet inside
i think its cool
hahs
aft tt had dinner at the hawker
anyone who would like to buy fiesta fair coupons for the teen challenge 7 a side competition, please buy frm me!!
its $5 per coupon.
.
watched initial D
love the racing scenes
haha
never cared
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soccer
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God
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18th december 1987
25th december
if you feel you need to tell somebody that you care,
don't wait until it is too late.
If you keep thinking you will do that another day,
then that day will never come.
If you always think that tomorrow will come,
then 'tomorrow' will run out quickly and
you'll realize the time that you've left behind you.
