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this is zongyao's blog
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Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all want to know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story...
You're never coming back
Sunday, October 30, 2005
havent been updating daily, kinda lazy.
today's the last day of hols for me, its back to sch tmr.
i wish the hols could last just a wee bit longer thou
yesterday was as usual, church and stuff.
-uncertianty
never cared
Monday, October 24, 2005
this is what i saw at a carpark near my hse. bali bombings?
wierd huh. a burnt out truck.
never cared
Sunday, October 23, 2005
to m:
i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you
never cared
Saturday, October 22, 2005
haven't been gg online of blogging these few days.
just realised i kept gg online cos i was looKing forward
to something, now gg online seems boring.
played soccer in the morning at queensway.
left at about 1145, moved on to rp.
wonderful journey on bus 32, took us to redhill.
so we walked to rp. ha
played then bathed. for ben and titus, yes, here i am,
blogging that my pants got wet cos some water spilt onto it.
and we were all drinking f&n grape. all cept titus.
ok anyway went to church, had nasi lemak.
kg showed invisible deck, nice trick.
went for cluster meeting, talked abt bgr.
discussed lotsa stuff, some pastor couple came to talk to us bout it.
after that went to hawker then service.
service was also bout bgr.
after service went to eat, had ba chor mee and satay.
miss u.
never cared
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
borin day, didn't really do much, went online in the morn
had breakfast at 1230, read a book.
lunch at 2, continued reading. pretty monotonous day.
nothing much to update.
was happy yesterday but well, maybe its just me.
never cared
Monday, October 17, 2005
sicked, tired.
been sleeping alot lately,
like sleeping 3/4 of my day.
maybe it's a good rest.
been slacking around and sleeping the whole day away,
can't really do much.
woke up at 11,
breakfast n straits times.
slept at 1, woke at 430, online, played battle for middle earth.
now its 642, and i feel like sleeping! at least when i sleep i won't
think that much. guess its good in a way.
never cared
Sunday, October 16, 2005
sunday.
nt sure what time i slept yday, pretty late thou
was just lying there emo-ing
tired. yawns. dry n tired eyes.
and i got woken up at 8 today, went to climb telok blangah hill
with my parents. super tired lah.
couldnt meet elaine cos gg grands place.
davio couldnt race cos gg grands place.
damn it lah.
damn tired. damn sad. breaking away.
never cared
Saturday, October 15, 2005
tired. soccer in the morn, played 3 on 3.
at qss. after that went with ben to get his slippers.
walked around queensway, checked out shops.
saw a nice white nike slipper! haha if i get tt i will wear slippers to chuurch!
HAHA
anyway ben bought a kapa slipper for 9.90.
bet his parents don't believe him. haha
went to the auditorium at 225, slept awhile while the band was practicing.
went for cell after that, then service.Hope to get a breakthru in some stuff.
after that went to chinatown, had frog legs. dad ordered alot.
when the waitress/helper came, she was like:'eh jiao ze me duo?'
hope my chi han yu pin yin is eligible!
anyway enjoyed dinner, then went home. and guess what,
i still DON'T have scv at home. tell me how boring like is without scv.
sitting here doing nothing.stoning.
i miss you.
never cared
Friday, October 14, 2005
frustrated, why can't i keep my feelings in check.
i really miss you alot. no idea why, no idea how to stop.
do you still? i'm so. sigh. undescribeable
it isn't the end of the world,
its not like someone is holding a knife to my throat,
so what is wrong? why can't i just throw the memory away?
just lay it among the memories that are at the back of my head,
rarely looking at them, and they don't bother me either
i really wish i was a computer, could just delete all the files away
and empty the recycle bin, easy as that,
to get rid of all this excess baggage.
what's the point in dwelling in the past?
its like quicksand, easy to go in but hard to get out of,
and i'm drowning inside it now. yes time has passed,
but still, i don't know why i am feeling this way.
anyway went to reeve's hse to game today
ended up loosing EVERY winning 11 game i played
eh tt's ok, he plays 6 star difficulty.
consoling myself! lol. but hey its true rt?
anyway today i ate kfc twice.
once with reeve for lunch, had 2pc chicken n 2 pc drumlets,
and cheese fries. tt is alot. had trouble finishing.
went home mom opened the door, guess what guys?
kfc for dinner!!!!! i'm like yay! LOL
but i ate less, shared the vhicken arnd.
haha soccer tmr!
never cared
Thursday, October 13, 2005
rough day today, sorta had heated debates
its like why cant i live my life the way i want it?
i mean what do u expect me to do durin the hols rt?
and i'm still very hurt over tt decision,
i tried so hard to obey even though i didnt want to
in the end it screwed up everything
i cant forget tt, and never will
i dont wanna be sterotyped to the WORLD,
doing what the world thinks is good.
its MY life, and i live it MY way.
i do the things tt i think is RIGHT,
not what ppl think is RIGHT.
i've had enough of listening.
i understand myself best, so yeah just leave me alone.
never cared
why
enough is enough
enough is enough
never cared
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
went out today,
left hse at 1220
was raining so heavily so cabbed to town
the uncle was pretty chatty
well tt's ok, but he was chatting in chi?!
it takes a few moments to understand what he's sayin
cos he speaks like so fluently and so chim?!
it took like 5 mins for me to get tt he was talking abt the erp
he says erp stand for Every Road Pay
LOL
humourous uncle
got to plaza sing, slacked, met jem's friends
went to eat lunch, then played xbox
winning 11 and nfsu2, aft tt daytona
went home and here i am.
never cared
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
well i've finally changed my blogskin
guess it looks better now
easier on the eyes.
kinda emo now, guess ppl never change
i'm so tired, dont wish to carry on.
dissapointed.
never cared
sometimes i just wish i could turn back time
i know i should not be thinking so much,
but i just cant stop myself thinking so much
i dreamt last night
it brought me back to those past memories
left me thinking the whole day
well i've never felt like this before
so confused, not knowing what to do
not knowing what's best, so afraid that i will choose to do the wrong thing,
something that i will regret in the future
i'm so unsure of what to do
yet in whatever action i will take,
i see myself regretting it in the future
feel like going on, not deciding, let fate have its way
but yet i know that is impossible
arrghh i wish God will just decide for me
just take care of anything and everything
cos he knows what's best for me
its so hard trying and trying without confidence
shld have gone for prayer last sat
when some guy had a vision
he said there are people in this crowd who have alot of hidden matters
and its weighing them down
.
well we're finally playing soccer this saturday,
at queensway secondary school. 10am till 1pm
another uneventful day goes by
was supposed to meet someone
but in the end couldnt
hope we meet up soon
i know i should not be thinking so much,
but i just cant stop myself thinking so much
i dreamt last night
it brought me back to those past memories
left me thinking the whole day
well i've never felt like this before
so confused, not knowing what to do
not knowing what's best, so afraid that i will choose to do the wrong thing,
something that i will regret in the future
i'm so unsure of what to do
yet in whatever action i will take,
i see myself regretting it in the future
feel like going on, not deciding, let fate have its way
but yet i know that is impossible
arrghh i wish God will just decide for me
just take care of anything and everything
cos he knows what's best for me
its so hard trying and trying without confidence
shld have gone for prayer last sat
when some guy had a vision
he said there are people in this crowd who have alot of hidden matters
and its weighing them down
.
well we're finally playing soccer this saturday,
at queensway secondary school. 10am till 1pm
another uneventful day goes by
was supposed to meet someone
but in the end couldnt
hope we meet up soon
never cared
Monday, October 10, 2005
boring day
woke up at 1130(earlier than usual!)
bought lunch at 130
started gameing from 215 to 550
lol
finished half a season of winning 11
too bored
hahaha
all those ppl who talked to me
SORRY!!
didnt realise so many ppl talked
lol
no wonder my game was lagging
SORRY PPL!!
REALLY SRY BOUT TT!!
next time if i dont reply
give me a ring k
LOL
today's mom n dad's weddin anniversary
mayb gg out for dinner ltr
i'm hungry.
woke up at 1130(earlier than usual!)
bought lunch at 130
started gameing from 215 to 550
lol
finished half a season of winning 11
too bored
hahaha
all those ppl who talked to me
SORRY!!
didnt realise so many ppl talked
lol
no wonder my game was lagging
SORRY PPL!!
REALLY SRY BOUT TT!!
next time if i dont reply
give me a ring k
LOL
today's mom n dad's weddin anniversary
mayb gg out for dinner ltr
i'm hungry.
never cared
Friday, October 07, 2005
just slacked at home today
real tired cos i slept arnd 4 last night?
dont ask me why.
and when i woke up in the morn
heard music coming frm my pillow
thought i was in a dream, but
no, i left my zen on thru the night
and no, it does not prove tt i'm stupid
been playing games like mad
it helps relax myself
feel like sleeping now
so shall stop here
real tired cos i slept arnd 4 last night?
dont ask me why.
and when i woke up in the morn
heard music coming frm my pillow
thought i was in a dream, but
no, i left my zen on thru the night
and no, it does not prove tt i'm stupid
been playing games like mad
it helps relax myself
feel like sleeping now
so shall stop here
never cared
Thursday, October 06, 2005
went out with davio today
starbucks
walked arnd
arcade
xbox
was shivering like mad today
and davio,
that is not ah-kua
dunno why also
even when i got outa the aircon place
i was still shiverin
no idea why
saw lotsa 'air pork'
saw this 2 indian guys laughing over russel peters
they were frm np
one was carryin the free lappy bag
starbucks
walked arnd
arcade
xbox
was shivering like mad today
and davio,
that is not ah-kua
dunno why also
even when i got outa the aircon place
i was still shiverin
no idea why
saw lotsa 'air pork'
saw this 2 indian guys laughing over russel peters
they were frm np
one was carryin the free lappy bag
never cared
THE PERFECT GUY
-im the guy who will text you every single morning
and tell you good morning and every single night
to tell you sweet dreams.
-im the guy who will text you and tell you "i love
you and you make me smile" just because it's true.
-im the guy who will blindfold you and take you to
the beach, let you run your toes through the sand
and then make you guess where we are.
-im the guy who will show up at your games (or
competitions or meets) without you knowing just to
surprise you.
-im the guy who will hold you when you are crying
and wipe away your tears.
-im the guy who still thinks that you're beautiful
even without makeup but instead, in sweat and a
big t-shirt.
-im the guy who won't pressure you to do things
you dont want to.
-im the guy who will show up at your house with
soup and a movie when you aren't feeling well.
-im the guy who kisses you on the forehead.
-im the guy who doesnt kiss and tell.
-im the guy who actually listens to you when you
talk.
-im the guy who's excited all day because im
looking forward to our date that night.
-im the guy who is contented to just be able to hold
you and wants nothing more.
-im the guy who can't help but smile when you walk
into the room.
-im the guy whos perfectly happy with staying in
and watching movies and cuddling.
-im the guy who won't lie to you about where hes
going or where he's been or who he's been with.
-im the guy who gets butterflies when he hears
your name.
-im the guy who picks you over his friends.
-im the guy who's not afraid to tell his friends
he loves you.
-im the guy that isn't afraid to tell you he loves you.
-im the guy who isn't always trying to act like a
hard ass around you.
-im the guy that will tell you how i feel.
-im the guy who doesn't care about your
imperfections and loves you more for them.
-im the guy who will hold you while we watch the
sunset.
-IM THE GUY WHO REALLY WANTS TO MAKE
YOU THE
HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD.
.
a definition of the perfect guy
is it true?
hmm
even if u try to be this guy
will it work?
-im the guy who will text you every single morning
and tell you good morning and every single night
to tell you sweet dreams.
-im the guy who will text you and tell you "i love
you and you make me smile" just because it's true.
-im the guy who will blindfold you and take you to
the beach, let you run your toes through the sand
and then make you guess where we are.
-im the guy who will show up at your games (or
competitions or meets) without you knowing just to
surprise you.
-im the guy who will hold you when you are crying
and wipe away your tears.
-im the guy who still thinks that you're beautiful
even without makeup but instead, in sweat and a
big t-shirt.
-im the guy who won't pressure you to do things
you dont want to.
-im the guy who will show up at your house with
soup and a movie when you aren't feeling well.
-im the guy who kisses you on the forehead.
-im the guy who doesnt kiss and tell.
-im the guy who actually listens to you when you
talk.
-im the guy who's excited all day because im
looking forward to our date that night.
-im the guy who is contented to just be able to hold
you and wants nothing more.
-im the guy who can't help but smile when you walk
into the room.
-im the guy whos perfectly happy with staying in
and watching movies and cuddling.
-im the guy who won't lie to you about where hes
going or where he's been or who he's been with.
-im the guy who gets butterflies when he hears
your name.
-im the guy who picks you over his friends.
-im the guy who's not afraid to tell his friends
he loves you.
-im the guy that isn't afraid to tell you he loves you.
-im the guy who isn't always trying to act like a
hard ass around you.
-im the guy that will tell you how i feel.
-im the guy who doesn't care about your
imperfections and loves you more for them.
-im the guy who will hold you while we watch the
sunset.
-IM THE GUY WHO REALLY WANTS TO MAKE
YOU THE
HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD.
.
a definition of the perfect guy
is it true?
hmm
even if u try to be this guy
will it work?
never cared
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Met Amanda at kap this morn
had mac
i ate hotcakes
forgot to say 'and sausage'
the place was packed with students
so damn noisy
mg, hcjc, ny,sajc
all muggin
met yi jun there
guess she lives arnd that area
slacked and ripped music
lol
aft tt her friend went with her to do proj
i went home
slack afternoon again
a baby bird flew in my hall
shit on the window
make me clean
basket
do i look like a maid??
had mac
i ate hotcakes
forgot to say 'and sausage'
the place was packed with students
so damn noisy
mg, hcjc, ny,sajc
all muggin
met yi jun there
guess she lives arnd that area
slacked and ripped music
lol
aft tt her friend went with her to do proj
i went home
slack afternoon again
a baby bird flew in my hall
shit on the window
make me clean
basket
do i look like a maid??
never cared
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
its now or never,
and i choose never
its hard to make this decision
if ever its meant to be
God will work i guess
was talking today
then suddenly got kinda emo
well i'm tired
playin too muchgames
mu
and i choose never
its hard to make this decision
if ever its meant to be
God will work i guess
was talking today
then suddenly got kinda emo
well i'm tired
playin too muchgames
mu
never cared
Monday, October 03, 2005
good riddance.
great day today
slacking all day long as usual
life seems to be getting better
slept at 1 plus yday
yet woke at 730 today
tired
but something's keeping me awake
haha
nt sure why but yeah
great day today
slacking all day long as usual
life seems to be getting better
slept at 1 plus yday
yet woke at 730 today
tired
but something's keeping me awake
haha
nt sure why but yeah
never cared
Sunday, October 02, 2005
havent been updating cos life's been pretty the same
well yday had service followed by j21
slacked the whole day away
went to church at 6
and this week
I WORE SHOES
NOT SLIPPERS!
HAHA
oK nothing else to update alr
life's been pretty the same
well yday had service followed by j21
slacked the whole day away
went to church at 6
and this week
I WORE SHOES
NOT SLIPPERS!
HAHA
oK nothing else to update alr
life's been pretty the same
never cared